As many of you know this past year God has really been changing me, moving me, molding me, and burning impurities put of my life. The sin is floating to the top and is being scraped off by the Holy Spirit. I have never in my life been so on fire for Jesus.

It’s a massive change that is so beautiful and awe inspiring. I actually have become 100% SOLD OUT for Jesus.  I returned from spending a week at World Revival Church in Kansas City and worshiping for hours and hours gave me a breakthrough that was amazing.  During worship I felt the Holy Spirit on my face like a warm, loving, fog that healed me inside and at the same time gave me instant wisdom from above.

I felt God calling me to evangelize here in Seattle,  and as he allows to other parts of the world as well.  I love to introduce people to Jesus, and most importantly let them know the love that Jesus has for them. I have started a ministry called “Seattle Revival” and you can find it at www.seattlerevival.com.  God gave me $25,000.00 to start his ministry and I am currently looking for space on the East side. Please pray that I find a building I can lease! Please pray that God provides me with a worship leader that is anointed and on fire for revival and the spirit of God.

Thanks to all my fans over the years for support. It looks like sometime in March I may be going to Uganda to do an outreach there and do the lords work. Please pray for me.

I feel that God is pulling me away from music and putting me where he wants me. So many trials have come my way, so many changes I am going through. As many of you know I have been going through a very rough time and now I yearn to be close to God, to trust in him 100%, to be an instrument for him and not me.  I pray that God uses me and changes me to be more like him.

Yours in Christ,

Phil

As many of you know, I have been combining my music with my outreach ministry in Seattle and it has had some amazing results. I really feel like God is calling me to evangelize here in Seattle,  and as he allows in his will to other parts of the world as well. I love to introduce people to Jesus, and most importantly let them know the love that Jesus has for them.

Thanks to all my fans over the years for support. It looks like sometime in October I may be going to Uganda to do an outreach there and do the lords work. Please pray for me. I started my ministry site at www.seattlerevival.com

I feel that God is pulling me away from music and putting me where he wants me. So many trials have come my way, so many changes I am going through. As many of you know I have been going through a very rough time and now I yearn to be close to God, to trust in him 100%, to be an instrument for him and not me.  I pray that God uses me and changes me to be more like him.

Yours in Christ,

Phil

I hope this month brings forth renewed Joy in the spirit in your hearts and souls and I pray that you keep holding onto the faith that Jesus Christ is the truth and the light. I know that faith is hard sometimes, but it’s the riddle insidethe enigma that allows believers to feel the Holy Spirit and understand God’s word, follow it, and bring forth changes to better the Kingdom of Heaven.

I know that many of you who are going through trials are seeking deliverance because I read each and every one of your emails. I know these times are hard and sometimes scary. It’s a big test of faith, and I pray that you find the faith to not only endure the trial, but also to rejoice and be thankful for the trial. That’s right, actually be thankful and praise him FOR the trial. A parent disciplines a child out of Love and our God is no different.

I want to write about trials today because they are one of the hardest things we can endure as Christians and it seems like every other email I get is about some hardship someone is going through. There are many kinds of trials, and each one is specifically designed for you and you alone.

Many of you elders and Pastors know what I am talking about, and when you hear someone’s situation, you can’t help to want to care for them and help them get through it, but in most cases, they need to get through it themselves.

Sometimes people email me for support, or just fellowship and they tell me about the situation they may be going through.  Often times I think to myself “that’s really not that bad” but it IS bad to the person going through it. Everyone has their own weaknesses in the flesh, and or spiritually and God custom designs the trials for each believer to learn from. I have learned that all trials are hard to endure because they bring about change. Change is what God is trying to do.

Due to my past growing up, my biggest fear is security. I need to feel like I have the finances to take care of my family, my bills, my ministries so I am especially fearful of trials that involve my finances. Financial trials are hard for ME to endure.

One of the things that I have learned as a follower of the way, and a brother in the light that is Jesus Christ is that if God wants to change you, he will. All he has are trials at his disposal to change you. That is one of the ways God likes to change us and make us more like him. I have learned that trials sometimes last a long, long time. Years in fact.

I just was taken out of what was a long and financial trial. The enemy was using every means he could come up with to ruin my business and to take away my finances. He entered two great people and caused them to be dishonest. It caused my family much stress and anxiety and I am so glad that 2009 is gone. That was the year that I learned to be a better shepherd of my money, and not to put faith in people but in Jesus.

in 2009 the enemy was in full swing and God had me in a trial to teach me to be a better shepherd of HIS money, and not spend so much on prideful living. It took my wife and I a year to learn this. We thought that he was blessing us for our generous giving, and while he did for a while, soon it turned into prideful living. There is a difference.  I learned that God will let you run on grace for a while, but then its basic training.

In the heat of the trial, I was so close to God it was amazing. I was so close to being late on the mortgage, and my bills that I really pushed in. I was in the word in the morning and in the evening and pushed in at our care group on Wednesday and really pushed into church in Sunday. Finances were so bad I began to praise him harder, and through the Holy Spirit I was reminded about how I give away to much finances to people I just meet at church, and or help people that I just meet, and or spend way too much money on food, clothes, etc.

You see, there is a right way and a wrong way to give. I was giving the wrong way.

You know those types that come to church, in the heat of a problem with life, and a trial. They are on fire at first, they come maybe two weekends, then you don’t see them again. I don’t mean to gossip and or call out these people, I know that those reading this understand that I don’t mean to criticize. It’s just that I wanted to give you an example because many of you know people like this.

When I would meet these people, most of their problems or crisis’s were financial in nature. I would then offer to build websites, start firms, and in many cases loan money. What I learned in this trial is that I need to really “pray” about who to give money too. I would come to their aid like superman, cut a check, and try to “solve” their problems. In almost all cases, they still backslid and or left the church.

I spent way to much over the years doing this, when the money could have went to Thailand cleaning up the child prostitution, or building churches in Cambodia.

The Holy Spirit began to show me all of my wrongs, my sins, and I felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders when I asked for forgiveness of my high living, and wrong giving.  I felt a peace and I began to praise him even harder.

A few days later, I managed to sell my company for a large sum of money. That’s how trials work. Once you really have “real” faith, when God knows you’re not faking it, and you really begin to “understand” what you’re doing and change it will be over in the blink of an eye.

This month I pray specifically that those of you going through financial trials press in like never before. Father God I pray that those that are hurting, suffering, and losing faith are restored and renewed. I pray that your covering goes over all of these Brothers and Sisters who server you and your mercy endures in their lives.

I also pray that our country can get on the right path and get out of a slump that has caused so much pain and suffering.

Your brother in Christ,

Phil Fischer

Thank you so much for coming to the site, and I know from your emails and support that some of you are actually benefiting from these blogs I write and to be honest it makes me feel good to know that.  I really appreciate you visiting and saying what is on your mind. Even the personal email’s asking for prayer and or help mean so much to me. Often times when I am depressed, or feeling down, I open up my website in box and sometimes spend hours and hours reading them, and responding to them. Yesterday I stayed up until 4:20 am!  I wish I spoke HINDI or Thai so I could help many of you in those nations better by understanding your language. I suppose if God could make the heavens and the earth, he could get me to learn these languages.

I have not been writing much because to be completely honest with all of you I just did not want to write anything negative. I always want to be supporting and uplifting in all of my posts because many of you are indeed going through trials of many kinds. God molds us and shapes us by putting us through trials and remember that when you are in the heat of a trial that he loves you. He does not bring change to someone unless he loves you and wants you to change. I realize this and yes for you elders out there I remember the scripture in James. Now we all know the King James version, but look at the amplified:

²Consider it wholly joyful, my brethren, whenever you are enveloped in or encounter trials of any sort or fall into various temptations.

³Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience.

⁴But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be [people] perfectly and fully developed [with no defects], lacking in nothing.

⁵If any of you is deficient in wisdom, let him ask of ^[b]the giving God [Who gives] to everyone liberally and ungrudgingly, without reproaching or faultfinding, and it will be given him.

This scripture, I have read so many times during this year. I have to tell you brothers and sisters that I, a follower of the way, a man of many sins that found Jesus in October of 2001 have pretty much had the worst year of my life so far.  These are not little trials either. A job loss, or a friend leaving you are big trials to young believers, but when you mature and get older the trials get harder, and harder.  Just when I settle down for a few days, thank God for what I have, get into the word and feel just a hint of Joy it seems as though another, greater trial is down the road, and then hits me right out of the blue with no warning at all.  Trial after trial after trial.  There seems to be no end to my trials this year.

At the beginning of the year when the first trials came I joked with other brothers at church about the difficulties I was surviving, and would pat them on the back and say ” Gotta stay strong!” or “Gotta Praise him when your in a trial”. I joked about my trials. That lasted through February and March. I actually had the faith. I “considered it wholly joyful“.

By April I was just about ready to pull my hair out over some issues with my music.  I guess this is one small trial that I was going through (still am) but I don’t want to gossip, but I don’t know what the line is between gossip and just being honest about something, writing it down, and sharing it with others. I would hate, and I mean really feel guilty if other Christian artists out there had to endure what I have had to endure.  It’s hard to explain really but I don’t think I can survive another attack on my music. The enemy is doing “everything” under the sun to keep this CD from hitting Lifeway and Family Christian stores.  The people he uses are some of the nicest people on earth.

Sometimes the difficulties are so much to bear that I just laugh really.

I want to tell you these trials brothers and sisters not for pity but to give hope to all of you who endure our faith.

To start out with January- April trials,  I had a well known, connected Nashville “on fire” for Christ Christian’s ask me for $178,909.00 dollars to “spin” my music on mainstream Christian stations. That’s the ONLY way it can be done now.  Can you imagine?  I told him to jump in the creek and he told me “You will never spin on the radio. I am radio. They don’t put you in rotation unless I say so!”  It’s illegal yes, but it’s done in such a way that skirts the laws.  What happened to the day’s of a good song getting on the air? Everything has changed. It’s worse in many ways than the secular market. It’s all commercial now.

So understanding that, and seeing many Christian artists getting on the radio, getting popular, and living this dream was for the beginning of this year hard to bear for me.  So between this Nashville guy , as well as a slew of other problems ranging from dishonesty by distributors, to flat out lying to me about release dates, the beginning of this year was awful for me and it really tried my patience to the point of just sitting in my truck and listening to the word on CD for hours. It took everything out of me to write something uplifting in April.

Even through all of these trials, I wanted to impress God so I managed to make a commitment to Him to get into the word before bed, and in the morning before I check email, make calls, or get up I try and get into the word.

Then May hit and I cannot tell you this trial because its still ongoing, but it’s a complete nightmare to have to go through. To make matters even more worse is that the person that is doing it to me is also a brother in Christ. Yesterday I did something I never thought was possible and that is pray for him that God blesses him. I actually forgave him for what he is doing to me. It was very hard to do. Later in May we got slammed by Satin with a financial crisis that really, really hit me out of left field.  A family member needed some assistance, and when you add the fact that I am starting businesses for people, helping them out financially, etc, it all ads up and when you get hit with a financial problem all of a sudden it makes you wonder if you did the right thing.

I was even questioning my tithe.  For the last part of May I tried to watch 3 TD Jake’s a day. Joyce Meyers was also on my watch list as well as John Bevere. I love these guys, and they are out of all of the evangelist I know probably the ones that speak to me the most because they have “been there”.  I pushed in even harder. The more trials that came, the more I pushed in and in and in.

Finally my elders of my church invited my family to a B & B at an island in the San Juans. I was really looking forward to the relaxation and when we settled in and the rain started to come down, Satin began to fill my head with images of problems I was going through, my music, taking care of my family and he loves to remind me of the days I was single living in sin and how much fun it would be go to back. I shook it off but by 7PM I was in a miserable mood. One of the elders said “Let’s praise Jesus and worship the Lord”.

You know from my posts how honest I am with you guys. Let me tell you that is NOT what I wanted to do at that moment.  I could not pick up my guitar and do it.  Another worship leader began to play songs and it took three songs but by the 4th song I was singing and had pulled my guitar out and played “His love endures forever”. I began to feel the evil cloud leave my family and I felt for a moment some joy and peace and even began to feel confident that I am going to praise his name through this trial. We enjoyed our evening but as time went by, my 6 year old son, my firstborn, began to have wheezing and difficulty breathing. We took him to the small clinic right away on the island and was told it was “allergies”.  I knew in my heart that was not the case, but I was determined to have a good time but promised myself I would watch my son.

It was late into the evening now and I found myself checking on him and it seemed that he was better somewhat. I prayed over him and laid hands on him and commanded in the name of Jesus he would “heal”.  I could not get to sleep however because, call it a lack of faith, I knew he was suffering. So I sat at the end of his bed and watched him struggle breathing until around 1am and then I could not keep my eyes open. I went into my room and asked my wife to watch him for a few hours and she agreed. I went to bed and said a prayer.

I was woken up at 5am by my Mother in Law saying that they had to Evacuate him by boat to Seattle and he was in the ER. I called my wife and she said she did not want to wake me, so she called 911 because nothing was open on this island and they had a boat come from Seattle to get my son, and take him to the hospital.

Turns out: Asthma attack. Know what? My son does not have asthma.

So as you can imagine, no sleep, running on empty I packed all of the stuff and drove home to my wife who was taking care of my son. He was fine. Breathing normal and telling me all about his trip to the hospital. It was “cool”. Amen for that.

Anyway, I write this late on Sunday evening this first week of June to tell you to please pray for me. But this time I don’t want to pray that my CD gets in stores, or that I get out of this financial problem, or this brothers leaves me alone. What I really want prayer for is that I become what GOD wants me to become, not what I want. Maybe that’s it. Maybe that is what I need to learn here.

Your brother in the sufferings of our Lord Jesus,

P

I am writing allot of new material now, and trying to rehearse and get ready for when the Lord calls me to perform. I heard today that my CD is being shipped to Lifeway, and now we are trying to break the hold these corporations have on radio. I received an email today telling me its going to be $245,898.00 dollars and if I wire this to an account at Royal Bank in Canada, they will spin my single on all Christian stations nationwide. How sad. So that’s what it takes huh? Good thing it’s spring.

I take spring as a reminder from God that He loves new beginnings. When everything feels dead and dull and barren, God gives life. I love this about my Lord.

Now, as I look out the window and see the grass’s green growing in its vibrancy, the trees budding, and finally, after a long Washington winter, the sun shining on all in sight I’m reminded of God’s faithfulness. Like spring, God never fails to show up. He’ll never forsake us. With this thought, my heart swells.

Spring, too, is the time for singing. As the birds of the air who lift their voices at the arrival of spring, so must we. Praising the Lord is a must in the springtime. He is worthy of such. Though, we don’t deserve it, He grants us a fresh start–– a new beginning. He remains faithful, even when we betray him in our disobedience. When we deserve eternal winter, he gives rain, sun, and life.

So, this spring, whether you’re a passionate singer or an off-key, hands-in-pocket head nodder, give God the glory. Worship Him, for He is faithful. He gives new beginnings. If you need a ‘restart,’ He’ll give it to you. He’s that good.

Some crowds give me as warm a reception you could ask for, while others have me reeling in discomfort and outcastedness. Some promises are fulfilled; others are forgotten. Some days are rosy, some are average, and others have me wanting to quit.

At times, the lack of control over all of this is exasperating. “I want to drive the roller coaster!” I scream inside. “I want control!”

Yet, when chaos is the norm–– when criticism, failure, and mundaneness haunt me–– I remember the words of the fellow songwriter, the psalmist, “The Lord is my Shepherd.” Such an understanding keeps me at it. I’m being led by the One who formed me in my mother’s womb. The Lord, He is my shepherd, and I shall not want. He leads me through green pastures and beside still waters. He, the divine roller coaster operator, is in control. And He has my best interest in mind.

Today, let us be reminded of his sovereignty. His leadership is perfect. And, for this, I will worship Him. Whether musical success or failure is around the corner, this is about Jesus for me. Through my music, my life, my success and my failure: “May the Lamb that was slain receive the reward of His suffering.” (The Moravians)

-Phil

Why have those songs remained atop the list of great worship music through the ages? Is it their catchiness? Their eloquence? Maybe a little. Perhaps the Psalms are so great because of their face-melting guitar licks and brilliant music videos? Not in the least. What makes these particular songs so great in God’s eyes is their ability to capture the essence of Him. Unlike so many of today’s songs, the triumph of the Psalms is found in their authentic praise of God.

As I ponder such beautiful worship music, I can’t help but grow in my desire to write music of similar stature. I want my music synced with the songs of the angels, who forever worship God around His throne (Revelation 4-5), proclaiming “Holy” over and over. This is what I long for and strive for–– to give to God the glory due His name (Psalm 29).

Really, I’ll settle for nothing less with my music. He deserves far better than what he’s getting from most of today’s music. And so, I’m striving to write the hits. Maybe they’ll be catchy and eloquent. Maybe they’ll have face-melting guitar licks and we’ll shoot cool music videos for them. But, above all, they’ll worship God–– giving Him what He’s worthy of.

Amen. Who’s with me?

-Phil

Thank you so much for your support over the years. I really appreciate it very much and with much prayer, disappointment, and hope it now seems that my album will hit Lifeway in February of 2010.

I hope and pray it comes to pass but in this business you cant be sure of anything until you see it!

I visited Thailand this week and visited the churches there and I can tell you that they are on fire for Christ like no other. Talking to someone in the cab, they want to come to church. Talk to someone at lunch, they want to come to church. People there are so hungry for something different and when they feel the Lord it’s no going back. I spent a week there and reached out to people, supported the churches we have planted, and energized them.

Please pray for Thailand that it continues to grow. The enemy has planted there well, and its a war there like no other.

P